Across the Universe

Today marks the beginning of Lent, and Across the Universe people are sacrificing for this season of New Beginning.  Some might think you HAVE to give something up, but no that's not true.  The purpose of denying something from yourself has a much greater meaning.  For Lent, you must do something that will make you a better stronger person.  I'm not quoting anybody, that's just what I take from it all.  If giving something up such as caffeine or sugar makes you a better person, then go for it.  I used to promise to be nicer to my little brother, vow to be more patient, and try to exercise more often.  I honestly worked hard at all of those promises.  For 40 days that is...
After that, I was back to my same old mean nasty self.  muah hahaha

I don't want to set myself up for failure, nor do I want to be a hypocrite.  I can't give up Facebook, cokes, beer, chocolate, or shopping.  Some might think that a true Christian would give those things up and stick to it.  Good for you! Go for it! Good luck!  Like I said, I'm not setting myself up for failure.  I know what I'm capable of.  I don't give anything up, I try to better myself by soul searching, self reflecting, and seeking repentance.  I have a friend who gave up beer a few years ago.  God bless her, I don't know how she did it.  Lord knows she had temptation all around her with us alkies.  Sheez, I've had a hectic day and already I can't wait for Happy Hour.  I could oh say take up a gym membership and try shedding for the wedding.  I could vow to cook more often vs. eating out.  Hmm that's a good one I think!  But then I gotta think of all the technicalities.  Does eating out count all the chips and free salsa when I go to happy hour?  Can you bargain with God and write out a contract stating all the stipulations and details?  Not eating out is pretty broad.  What if I don't have time to make dinner because I worked all night and grabbing a dollar burger is soooo much easier?   Ok, so that one won't work.  I'm already seeking loop holes. 

In all honesty, I know what I am going to do to make myself a better person.  Like I said, I've done some self reflection and it all points to one direction: too many people take advantage of me in the workforce. There are too many people that feel they can over power and over shadow others and it's making me nuts.  There are some that are intimidating to me and there are some that I might intimidate.  So, I am going to make sure people hear me.  I don't like being taken advantage of, nobody does.  I'm not a 12 year old girl anymore, I'm 27 for crying out loud!  Yet, some people make me feel so small.  Don't get me wrong, I love love LOVE my job.  I thank God for it all the time.  When I say in the workforce, I mean all around me.  My job doesn't allow me to sit in the office in front of a computer all day.  In return, it forces me to get out there and get business taken care of.  I'm in the business of making changes and getting the public's attention.  We want to save lives, and I can't help women get a mammogram that might save their life if I'm afraid to talk about breasts.  I have got to let loose and be heard.  I come across community leaders, politicians, media, doctors, and affluent people regularly.  I need to be more consistent with my voice and believe in myself.  I may have a boisterous voice after a few drinkies, but day after day in the "office", I'm just a meek lil "girl." I'm sick of it!  You get no where by keeping your voice unheard.  I'm also going to listen more.  I might be the intimidator and not even realize it at times. 

I am Brandi hear me ROAR!

OK, I won't get ahead of myself.  I pray to God for the strength and courage. 


God Bless all during this Season of Lent.

I, Me, Mine

I've been putting off writing a blog because I couldn't think of anything specific to write about.  I hate typing long compositions.  I would rather say it and have it typed out automatically as I speak.  I'm too impatient to type everything I think about.  My mind goes 100 miles an hour.  I even speak too slow for my mind.  You might have noticed that I mumble and leave words out when I say stuff.  That's because my mind is going to fast for my tongue!  So Anyways, It's my first blog and because I"m a huge Beatles fan, I thought I'd entitle all of my future blogs as well as this one with titles from their songs.  Ok, I'll be honest, I'm not very original, so I'm ripping off titles that are already made...Oh and I don't edit, so go easy on the spelling and grammer. 

So random thoughts for the day:
I think I'm going bald.  I seriously think I'm going to inherit genes from my dad's side of the family and be a bald woman!  I used to have thick hair and now I think I'm losing it.  sick I know.  I'm not really losing my hair, I'm afraid I am.  My shower is constantly clogged up with hair.  I would blame it on Chris, because let's face it, he's a wookie, BUT we have seperate showers, so it's all me.  Yes, my lover is a hair beast.  His undershirt is a coat of hair.  That man will never freeze, that's for sure. 

I'm obsessed with hair.  I look at people's hair first.  Some people look at ring fingers, which I never have, but do now.  I look at their hair.  Is it shiny, curly (which I love), grey, straight, CLEAN. 

I have to wash my hair every day.  I wake up looking a like a satellite dish.  Seriously, I can't go to sleep and not wake up with my hair going every which way. 

Some people go to sleep and wake up looking like sleeping beauty with their hair all nice and in tact.  I hate you! 

My hair is also very oily.  Which is another reason I have to wash it everyday. I heard on the morning show yesterday that in order to have your hair it's healthiest, you have to go 2 weeks without washing it.  2 WEEKS!! I would have one nasty matted brown wookie on my head.  Not to mention I'd be single! I can't go 2 days let alone 2 weeks.  If I don't shower for one day, my bangs are all clumped up.  I could string out my hair and cook eggs with all the oil.  Ok, I'm exhaggerating, but still.  You get the point. 

I wish I had hair that didn't have to be washed and styled everyday.  Like the old ladies who go and get their hair done like once a week at the beauty shop.  Man, that would be such a time saver!  Everyday it's such a chore to wash this mop, blow dry for 10 minutes, not to mention all the products I use like root lifter, chi silk, hair spray, curl my layers, straighten my bangs, OH I have to part my hair just the right way BEFORE I dry my hair and put the products in.  It's rediculous.  Why can't I have a wash and go style.  I envy men.  It takes Chris 20 minutes to shower and shave and he complains about that!  I wish I had curly hair that way I could just put some mouse and antifrizz in and then just air dry.  Voila, I'm out the door! 

I used to perm my hair.  I mentioned how I love curly hair.  On a lazy day, I'll towel dry my hair, and then put some mouse in and defuse to get some curl/wave.   It's my one time saver.  Wait, I lied, I won't shave my legs to save time.  But that's another blog...

I could go on about my hair obsession.  All in all I complain about the effort I put into styling my mane, but I'm afraid of going bald.  Don't be surprised if I chop it all off and get the Kate Gosselin hair due when I have kiddos.